"I am not That"

When I am not That who am I trying to be?

The Truth is "I am That"

But, when I am not That, who am I trying to be?

I am trying to be an idea or thought that is raised in my mind. I am trying to identify myself every time or every moment with that thought only and trying to manifest based upon that thought. So, when I negate the thought also  with a thought "I am not this" then also I am still in the state of unawareness of "I am That". But, when I go beyond thought or mind (because mind is only a bundle of thoughts) then the awareness of "I am That" is happening automatically, rather the consciousness of "I am That" is already there. The only attempt that I have to make is to be aware of That.